Last week, I made my new album, Let the Bloody Moon Rise, available for 72 hours, writing that struggles with a label and frustration about the music business had put me in a place where I just wanted people to hear the record, so I was going to give them a chance, then I’d find a way to put it out next Spring.
Well, that’s not going to happen.
The past week found me revisiting a year of touring, recording, mixing, and mastering and staring at an immense amount of debt. Writing and playing songs has been my only job for several years and I always said I was sure a time would come when it would no longer be my only job; that time appears to be now. I’m very proud of Let the Bloody Moon Rise but, honestly, I don’t have the money to release it, and every dealing I’ve had with labels leaves me immensely frustrated about the direction of the “industry” part of the music industry. I just like writing songs and playing them. I don’t like arguing over money and contract details and seeing my bank balance dwindle until it’s gone.
Well, get a publishing deal, right? Get a song placed. All of that stuff, to one degree or another, requires people working for you and I can’t afford to have people working for me anymore. I also can’t afford the alternative, which is doing it yourself. A lot of people helped contribute and get this record made, and that means the world to me. I’ve put all of my money – to say nothing of money borrowed from my family and friends – into my career for the last several years and I’m very proud of what I’ve done, but I currently do not have a home, or health insurance, or enough money to continue to keep touring and putting out records. I can press a small amount of Let the Bloody Moon Rise CDs and LPs, and that’s what’s available – I’m making it available again this weekend so we can sell through what I can afford to press – and then I’m going to go play in someone else’s band, or write songs for somebody else, or, fuck, work in the projection booth at a movie theatre like I used to; figure out some way to get back to a place where I can afford to do the thing I love to do, and the thing I’m actually good at doing.
I cannot say for certain, but as far as I’m concerned, last weekend and this weekend is as much a “release” as Let the Bloody Moon Rise will see so, if you’ve been looking forward to it, grab it. It’s a real good record and I want the people who want it to have it.
I won’t be so melodramatic as to say I’ve played my last show or made my last record but, in terms of releasing and touring behind this record, any time in the near future, I don’t see a way to make it happen. It’s disappointing, but it happens. We had a good year and played with and for a lot of great, passionate people. I wish I were not so immensely disappointed and disillusioned right now but I am and, until I’m not, it doesn’t make a lot of sense to go out there and sing at y’all. I have a few shows left this year, and I’ll play those, and then, like I said, I’m going to go do something other than Kasey Anderson and The Honkies for a while.
You can buy Let the Bloody Moon Rise here, while they last, if you want it.
See you out there.